SCAMERS

Elvira Savinceva/Marina Korotkova ( Kazan , Russia )

Dear Sir or Madam This lady is back again. However she know uses the name Marina Korotkova. Who lives in Kazan Russia . After five letters I get the request for $700 for Visa, passport and plane tickets for visiting me in England . However as having read about not sending money to women I saw you sight and behold the lady I write to. When I write to her asking what her real name is I do not get a reply. However she is still advertising on the Dreammates website. I woul advise people to avoid this sight as mucjh as possible as a lot of the women on you balck list appear on this site. I have contacted the site owners and advised them that she is scammer, but they have done nothing. Many thanks for your brillant site. Peter Yates

Marina Petrova ( Ekaterinburg , Russia )

I am a single father of two living in Australia and one month ago I received an anonymous e-mail saying that she had seen my details on a Yahoo singles site, I belive that this has come from Adult Singles. I was susspicious immediately as within a day or so she had fell in love with me, then I was asked for money for a visa, only problem was that her English or her translator kept thinking that I live in America when on many occasions I had said I live in Australia. Then a week later says that she needs the US $ for an American visa. Haveing played along with it now for a few weeks, I am convinced this is a scam, I have sent no money but other please beware. I have heard so many stories. 

Letters:

First letter 

Hello my new friend!!! Me 30 years call Marina, me, my growth 173 sm, my weight 54 kg. I was born In Russia , now I live in city Ekaterinburg. The marital status is single! I was given birth May, 14 1972!, my mark of the zodiac a Taurus. My eyes have green color.  I have decided to find the man in the Internet therefore as I know about Russian men in bitter experience about which I to you shall tell if you write to me the letter on a letter box which I shall specify below!!! My girlfriend has given me the address of a site " Yahoo personals " and there I have seen you. You have very much liked me!!! My dream to find persons with whom I felt like easily, conveniently, freely and confidently! The person which is capable To like softly and sincerely. I do not search for any benefit and I do not search for adventures. I would like to find the unique person on all life. For him I shall become the loved wife and the true friend. I shall wait from you for the fast letter!!!  I shall wait your letter but my letter box: marina_xxx@front.ru

Second letter

Greetings my new friend. Thank you for so fast answer. I very much to wait it and am very glad to this event. I am glad for that , That you to understand me and to decide to write to me. I think, that it will be interesting to you to learn about me more and I shall inform To you all necessary information. Also it is interesting to me to learn and study about you as much as possible. I to live in the big industrial city to calm down in the east of Russia . My city refers to as Ekaterinburg my city very beautiful and I To love it . I to live in one of areas of this city. Our city very green as in it is a lot of trees and parks. I to want to inform you my address: Russia , city Ekaterinburg, street Lenina 24, index 620025 And to ask you to send me your photo the letter. I too very much to want to learn your address and to send you, that that from Russia . I very much to like to prepare. All my relatives to speak, that I was very good to do it. Especially I to love gifts of the sea, and also sometimes sharp food. Also our city to surround very big and rich woods. The population of our city makes about 3000000 inhabitants. My city To settle down in 2500 KM from Moscow . This city is strong to differ from the big cities and to be rather silent. Life in ours The city goes slowly. I to hope, what also beautiful and I to want to hear your city about it slightly? Further I to tell You have some about yourself. My birthday May, 14 1972, that is me now 30 years and call me Marina I to think, that you already to understand, that I to have Very serious intentions to find to itself the half and happy family. I to want to meet which persons to love and which To like me to lead with it all life and to be pleased to each day carried out with it. I to think that our purposes coincide and You to want to make too most. I was never married and had no children, but very to love them and hope that can to have it So children to decorate happiness our life and to do its happy. I also to want to learn about your private life and about your attitude To children? It is important for me that you were single now and fair with me! It was pleasant for me to receive from you the answer and I to hope That you to understand my English. I to wait your answer. Sincerely Marina .

Third letter

Greetings my love.Paul yes I was at the grandmother we very well have spent. Yes I am able to drive the automobile. I am mad happy to see your letter and to know about your feeling to me. I try to learn as much as possible About that how to arrive to you and to meet you. But I to learn today, that for the meeting to me is necessary to make out the visa and to go in Moscow . In Moscow of me for a long time to wait my brother. I already for a long time to promise to arrive to it and at last at me to appear such Opportunity . But I shall go in Moscow with very good news to him , that I love of you and very much to want to be with you. Mine The brother is ready the help me in all. It it is fine to know the city and to have much familiar. It to promise me, that at me will not be Problem in city and with the visa. It is ready me to give the apartment, that I lived there all these days. I spoke with my parents about that that probably I shall leave to America, they only Mother and father blessed me were glad for me, she thinks that it and there is my happiness. At me does not suffice Patiences to wait for this light moment in our life, I want to meet you, that more soon To kiss on the mouth you in, to look to you in eyes and to tell you I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! When you are far I feel lonely, you are very necessary for me. Ideas about our fast meeting heat to me soul and heart, they do me happy. My girlfriends already for a long time have noticed that I Began to look happier and cheerful, I am happy that I have you. I wait for our meeting, as the young schoolgirl of the first appointment in life. Tomorrow I to want to go in a travel company which is near to our work and to learn about the visa more. I to think, that I to please you such news and soon our dreams begin a reality. Your love Marina . 

Seventh letter

Greetings my love.Paul as I know, that I love you I simply have very strongly grown fond of you for this time. I today am very happy as to receive the letter from you and to learn more about the visa. I today to go in tourist in the morning The firm and there to give me the information how to receive the visa. They gave me advice to take the visa of the tourist, This visa to refer to as B-2 and term of its registration of 10 days, she is valid during 90 days. But she should be made out in Moscow in the American embassy, this firm may not render such services. They to tell, me, that all that is necessary for The visa, it to have registration the passport and the medical information. This visa to cost 350 dollars. These are the big money for me and I not To know, what to do. I have my savings, but they only will suffice me on flight up to Moscow . Almost each day I see sexual dream about us with you, it has very much liked me also I wants To tell it to you. To me has dreamed as we with you we meet and we go together as you take Me on hands, we go to you home. Then we go in a bedroom and you begin to undress me, our hearts arebeaten  synchronously, we are passionately kissed and and we become very close to each other. And it for me the biggest happiness in the world. I to love you and I begin to understand that love this such strong feeling, I am glad that I could to test it due to you. With love forever yours Marina.

Eighth letter

I thought that this was very clinical in the way it was written, certainly had done this before, there was no stone left unturned. Greetings my love. I about pleasure to want to answer your letter. I very much to miss on you. I to think of you all day. I so It is happy, that we may be together. I to learn as you may help me about money to the visa. I to go to bank and to me to tell, that It is possible to send money through system of remittances the Western union. It will be very fast and not a problem. Bank, which To be near to my work to have branch Western Union . I to inform you : Agent Location Details address URALVNESHTORGBANK  GRIBOEDOVA 32  EKATERINBURG 620010  RU  Marina Petrova When you to send money you number of a remittance both the full name and the address that I to not have problems should me inform With reception of money. I am sure, that all this to turn out. I already to speak, that on the visa it will be necessary to me of 350 dollars. In the last Time to me any more so is lonely, as earlier because you are at me. And all this due to you my love I to shine with happiness Right now. I each day to represent our first appointment and our first kiss. I to represent as we to look in the face Each other and to smile. I to want, that it is all there was a straight line now. But I to understand, that it is necessary to wait and suffer. I It is sure, that in some weeks we shall embrace each other. I to want to wish you successful day. I to want, that you To think of me and to think about our meeting. I always shall be yours and only yours. Yours forever Marina .

Tenth letter

Greetings my love Paul. Today I have learned in the Australian Embassy, what I shall receive the visa to require the medical information. Tomorrow I shall go and I shall make this information. But what I shall receive the visa to require in 350 American dollars! My love Paul if you have this money what to help me that help me well! I am very glad that have received from you the letter. I am very glad that between us exists Trust, I am simply happy to realize that my loved trusts me. Except for that I become more sure that we soon shall meet you, because love May overcome anyone ðàñòîÿíèÿ. Certainly there are difficulties which prevent To us to reunite, but we together should overcome them, because all in ours Hands. We should meet you because we may not live the friend without The friend, you agree with me? Write to me that you think of that that we with you in Fast time we shall meet. Whether to me you are necessary to know enough to me trust Or there may be all that about what we with you write each other only words? Love Develops of three components: understanding, trust and patience. You agree with Me? I wait for your answer, eternally loving you Marina.

Final reply (I suggested that I go and visit her this was the reply)

Greetings my love. Paul yes yesterday I was borrowed. There is no I do not want that you visited me in my city. Because at us it is very dangerous in Russia to foreigners and I am afraid for you. I itself want to visit you in America ! I want that you helped me with money to the visa through the Western Union . I to receive your letter. At me all is good. My life to become very happy as I have you. All is good, but I that our love should be, when we together, when beside. We should prove her at a meeting, at life together. I love you and to want to prove it to you. I to require you and to want to be with you. We so much long to write each other and to know much about us, but all of us still far apart and it to do me very bad. You too so to think? It seems to me, that we should be together right now, directly today. I to dream of it all these days. My ideas only about you and about us with you together. I very much to wait day when you to tell me at a meeting: I love you Marina and a kiss of me. It very much to like me. I shall wait your letter, my love. Yours for ever Marina . 

All I can say to others, if it is too good to be true, then perhaps it is. You gona be scamed.

Rings Marriage Agency ( Lugansk , Ukraine )

This letter is destinated to all International Marriage and Dating Anti-Scam Web-sites, Interpol and any other International Investigation Services. Please forward it to anybody who should know its content to avoid them to be scammed. It will help to make autors of these frauds stopped and prosecuted! Hi! There is new information I just got about the real lady whose pictures are used to execute this scam. She's actually a known ukrainian model called Yuliya Ogolenko. http://models.kiev.ua/personal.php?id=Yuliya_Ogolenko

I was corresponding with whom I tought being this lady trough an agency called "Rings Marriage Agency" http://ringsco.mega.net.kg who I met trough Absolute Agency (an open door for scammers) Officially her name was Tatyana Zaitseva. After some very sweet letters I got some doubts and asked the agency about if they met her personnally on interview. They said they knew her very well and personnally. After repetitive asking, they gave me also 2 (fake) adresses of their agencies in Lugansk and Severodontesk. I advised them about another false profile on their site who is in fact Marina Kazantseva http://models.kiev.ua/personal.php?id=Marina_Kazantseva another ukrainian model. I had at this time seen her pictures on another site. They listed her under another name. After my insisting, they took this profile out from their website. 

On the site of the "Rings" agency, you can find no adress, no phone number or any other contact. The company is very evasive about anything possible to trace them, and full of false testimonials and lies about their creation supposely 4 years ago by an american Mr. Bernius. Finally, all this site looks to be set-up with full intentions to scam foreign men who simply have the hope to find an interesting and serious woman there in Ukraine . In spite of all proofs and contacts I made by now, I can't understand why the site of this scam agency "Rings" is still open and proceeding their games of cashing in money with pictures of girls who have no idea of what is going on. 

Anybody who needs more information or help with another case will be welcome to write me. georgeswidmer@hotmail.com Thanks for your attention!

Nadya ( Kherson , Ukraine )

Here is another one to add to your scam list, I received these from her/him; 

Letters:

Hi I so pleased that has got your letter. It is so many things that I want to tell you, I think I start with history of my life:I was born at 10of december in Kherson on south of Ukraine . Ukrainian people are very good. But our country is poor and corruption. I have no brother or sister. I have mother and father I love them very very much. It is the best people for me in the world. I finished university. Some times ego I wanted to became a fashion model. But it is very hard. And here for this is pay not too much. But my friends think that I have all ability to become a good model. I think I must have time to myself and for my future family but this work take all my free time. Now I work in not big firma as a secretary but I do not know yet whom I want to be. My friends tell me that I beautiful but I do not know, I not always complacent of as I look. I like reading books about love. I like forest, mountains, seaside. I want to walk with my lovely man by the forest. I want to see sunrising on seaside with my love. I want to wake up in your arms. I want that we will be two part of one. I see v you are good man. I like you very much. I want to know more about you v for me inside world of man is more important that how he is looks. I believe that you will love me as much as I will love you. I understand that you want to know more about me. But I know English bad. It is very hard for me to write. It is much for one letter for me I of course will write more about me in next letter. I use translation program and program that show me my mistakes. Now I searching for English teacher but that I found it is cost too much for me. I send you some of my pics (there is one more in my ad but I do not remember the number of my ad), I want to send you more but I have no scanner. I will be waiting for your letter. Your Nadya. 

I had an ad at cyberdating.net............ I have letter from you on this ad. You send me your direct e-mail...now I write you back. If you do not remember me- you can see my photos here: 

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I have write your letter back before:

Hi. I so pleased that I¦ve got your letter!!! you are a very interesting man. I¦m sorry but I live in Ukraine . I hope it is not problem for you. Ukraine is a poor country but I hope country where I from, is not the main for you. I¦m thinking a lot about you..........I¦m a very romantic person. I will be waiting for your letter very much. I will be happy if you send me some of your photos. Nadya. If you do not want to comunicate with me any more - please write me back and say this.

Natalya Zaykova ( Astrakhan , Russia )

Hi, my name is Brian a 30 year old guy that had a profile posted on match.com looking for someon in my local area. I was very suprised when I got an email from Natalya Zaykova (natik_7005@fromru.com) claiming to be from Astrakhan . The orignal email came through the match.com system but requested that I use the email above to continue talking with her. I wish I had the orignal few emails still but I only have the last several. Getting together with somebody from Russia was the last thing on my mind when I posted my profile but I figured what the heck I'll email back and see what happens. The first thing that made me suspicious was the pictures I was being sent. While the girl pictured was very pretty, Natalya claimed to be 28 years old and the picture didn't appear to fit that age, at least in my opinion. The pictures also looked like proffesional pictures, not something somebody who makes $50 a month could afford to do. After about 8 email exchanges she was "in love with me". I just couldn't buy into that. She claimed to have no phone, no money, etc. I kept playing along. I'm a detective by trade and I smelled a rat so I wanted to see if I was correct. I started doing some google searches and stumbled onto this website and went through the "blacklist" to see if anything matched up. As luck would have it, I found Natalya Vinogradova ( Ivanovo , Russia ) listed and found the letters in that listing to be an almost exact match. Natalya again used "I saw your structure" which I thought to be an odd, unique phrasing. Other letters match too. She wants to teach me how to waltz just like she did for BW. The walks through nature she described were almost exactly the same. It was spooky how similar they were. By this time I was up to about 19 emails between us and she'd yet to say anything about wanting money. I figured that would be the nail in the coffin if she did that so I kept playing along. As luck would have it, she asked for it today as described in the last letter. A scammer is revealed again and this time she or he (who knows) was busted long before they knew and did not get 1 red cent! Thanks BW for sending in your story. While I knew this was bogus, I never would have matched it up as a reapeat offender without you sending in your story. 

Letters:

Letter 18

Hi my dear Brian!!! As always I am so excited to get a letter from you. * Everything is as usual in my life and nothing special happens. I have seen the movie "Pretty woman" yesterday. I am sure you have seen it too. I like this movie and I have seen it several times already. After it I went to sleep and I was dreaming about us. I believe that you are my second half and the destiny helped us to meet. It is our chance to be happy and we can't miss it. It would be unfair. I understand that we don't know each another for long time and we haven't met but I don't care. I just know what I feel inside and my heart tells me everything. I would never believe that I can fall in love with the person I have never met in the real life. But now I have experienced it and I believe in it. Everything could happen in this life. And there is nothing strange in it. I need to tell you one thing. It is really very important for me. But I need to know that you trust me. You shouldn't have any concerns about me. I don't deserve it. I have only serious intentions about you. Just write me that you trust me and I will be not scared to tell you this. I need to tell you this, because it is very hard to feel it inside and not be able to tell you. Please, dear tell me, that you trust me and that you don't think that I am weirdJ It is not so, I am just very sensitive and sensual person. And you mean everything for me in my life. I just can't imagine my life without you anymore. I will better die than lose you. My life will be empty without you, it will have no meaning. I will think about it tonight and will write you about my feelings tomorrow. Please, be honest with me and Inform me if you trust me. Take care,  honey. You are in my heart. Thousands of kisses. Yours forever. Natalya.

Letter 19

My dearest man in this world Brian! I thought much about us today. I can't keep it in myself any more. I need to tell you everything I feel inside. You are the dearest person in my life and I can't be apart from you. I know that it sounds strange for you. But even that I haven't met you in the real life, I know one thing for sure. Please, don't be scared. But I want to tell you that I love you, yes, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you and the thought about you makes me so happy. I want to be with you so much. I want to feel you with every part of my body, I want to feel the tender touch of your hands, to feel the smell of your body, just to know that I belong to you and that you are mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am full of desire and I want you as a man, I want to be your wife, your friend, your soul mate, your lover, your dream. I understand now perfectly that you are the man of my dream. I was searching for you all my life and now I have found you and I am not going to lose you. We will be happy together, I will do everything for it. I am strong enough to overcome all the difficulties and hardships which are between us. There is no barrier which can stop me. My love will overcome all the difficulties on our way to each another. We will be together, believe me. I will cross the ocean just to be with you. I don't need anything else - I just want to see you, to look into your eyes, to kiss your lips, to touch your strong body. My love will be enough for two of us. Do you know the song of Bon Jove " Always". This song is about my feelings to you. I will love you, baby, always and it doesn't matter for me what will be in the future. I will love you, you are the air I breath, the reason for me to live. And there is no life for me without you. Please, don't hurt me and tell me that you understand me. Hope to hear from you very soon. Love you. Miss you badly. Yours forever Natalya.

Letter 20 (finally wants money)

Hi, honey Brian! It is amazing to get your letter again!!!!!!!!!!!!! In hands I to hold a gift for you, my love!I miss you badly, honey. I love you so much. I can't be apart from you, it is so hard. You are my life, I want to hug you so much, to feel your warmth, to look into your eyes, to feel myself happy and safe near you. I am sure everything will be Ok and the destiny will work for us and we will be happy together. I often think about us and try to imagine our life together. Sometimes I feel you so near and close to me. I even feel you on the distance. I feel when you are in a high spirit and when you are sad. I am happy when you are happy. I want to be with you so much and I though about the ways for us to be together. So I tried to do something for us and decided to go to the Embassy to check what I need to come to you. So, to come to your country I need to make some paper work and to get visa. It will take some time, of course, and to pick up many documents from my side. But I will do everything which depends from me. But there is one thing which upsets me very much. You see, I need to pay for getting visa. And you know that my salary is too small for it. I don't want to complain but you know that I have a difficult financial situation here. I have a great desire to come to you, to see you at last and only money separate us from each another. I love you so much, honey and I don't want to lose you. Nobody can help me with it. Of course, I could ask my Mom to help me but she doesn't have such money though she would like to help us. I am honest and sincere with you. I hope that you understand me and that you will do it for me. I already gave some papers to them and they made a file for me. All I need now is to pay them money. So it will be, $45 for visa and $30 for registration, also I need to pay for medical exams - it will be $50, $40 for the interview, and I need to get a foreign passport, it will cost for about $40 and for some another expenses I may have. So in general I will need for about $205. If you want to help me, my love I have found out that You have to send the money by Western Union . You need to send me your full name, address, amount of money and the control number. You need my full name and address, so here it is (Natalya Zaykova; Russia , Astrakhan , street Lenin 76, apartment 34 ). I could find such information, love mine. I really hope that you understand my situation. I want to see you very much but without your help I can't do it just because I don't have such money. Money is nothing but they help to overcome all the difficulties on our way to each another. Sorry, dear, if it upsets you. I just think that we need to trust each another and to share everything. Hope that you agree with me. Just imagine that in short time we could be together. And there is only one problem now which can be solved with your help, dear. I love you so much, you are the best in my life and our meeting could be the happiest event for us. Miss you badly honey and waiting impatiently for your soon reply. Yours forever Natalya.

Oksana Smirnova ( Odessa , Ukraine )

Hi, I was contacted by this person over dating agency. After 2 letters she  wanted me to use that Metou dating agency and pay for the service, This  website is totally a scam in my opinion. I just ended up deleting all the  material I was sent from this person. Two days later I get another letter  asking me to pay for translation fees. Here is the letter and three pictures  was sent of this so called  woman. I definately will be supporting your balcklist. I am very happy I found it, and thank you!

Letters:

Hello XXX, First of all thank you for a letter, I liked your message very much. I think you might wonder why I am seeking a love from such a far away place and outside of Ukraine . Well, I am 28, I have had love affairs but unfortunately either I  loved them and they did not love me or they loved me and I did not love them in return. So you can say that I have never been "in love" with a special man.  I ave  seen what works in a relationship and I have seen what does not work in  a relationship, and I am not willing to settle for anything less that pure  ove. I  am very honest in sharing this information with my partners so that if I am  not able to commit completely to a man,I want to break off our relationship out  of respect for his feelings so that he can get over me and not waste his time  with a relationship that is not leading to marriage. When I get close to someone  they become my best friend and such they deserve to know my honest intentions. Also I have to say, I am a one man woman. I do not believe in cheating at  all, it degrades the bond between a man and a woman and I believe that the strength of a relatinship is based in mutual respect so cheating is not compatible with this respect. I swear this is true.I would like to find a man such as you, a man to hold at night, a man who would feel safe in my arms, and to love me for all the good things that I have to offer as well as forgive me for the imperfections that make me unique. I am in fact looking for a man to whom I can devote all of my love and life energy towards. Can you imagine chopping vegatables and having a special person surprising you with a hug, or a soft kiss on your neck trying to distract you from your task? Or can you picture us awakened at night by the soft cry of our child? Can you imagine me softly sayinng you "love you" when you are sleeping? Well, why I seek out a husband out of Ukraine . Well, to be truthful, I am absolutely ready to get married, but I am a very sensetive woman and while I have been involved with several men in my life, I am also very honest and if I am not absolutely in love I will not continue in that relationship if that love component is missing. Well, the internet is a very convenient way to get to know a person without the distractions of a physical presence. I agree with you that there is not a substitute for a physical meeting. And I hope that we can meet in the near future, perhaps very soon? And we can see if we are compatible. Truly, I want to be married soon. Maybe, we can meet so that we can try a trial engagement if we find that the love component is there between us and get a chance to see if we are destined to be together. I am very sorry to tell you about that, but I know writing letters throught the internet is the fasties way to get to know each other and I am always very happy to get all of your letters and replay to you as soon as possible. I knew I would have to pay the money in order to correspondens with you, but I din't know it would take so much money. I am very sorry I came up with such a matters. But it is pretty expensive for me to pay for the letters and for the translations. I mean I can speak English a little bit, but that is not enough in order to express my feelings to you. The point of this is I would like very much for you to pay for our correspondence. I would really appreciate if you can help me with some money, and it would give me a chance to write you more often. Again I am sorry. Each time I send or get letter I pay about 5$ with translation for each one. You can send me some money via Western Union System on my name; Ukraine , 65000, Odessa st.Nikolaevskaya doroga 31A-13 Smirnova Oksana I will be waiting for your answer and will think of you as I always do. Kisses, Yours, Oksana

Olenenok_999

This girl in the black dress, pictured in the gazebo is still at it trying to scam men out of money, she now goes by the name Olenenok_999 -- I have been in email conversation as of 11-21-2002,, here is a recent pic 's thank God I checked your site when I became leary of her all of a sudden falling in love with me and wanting to bare my children at the 3rd email......

Oxana Ageeva ( Tomsk , Russia )

Hello I am 40 year old male from Australia . I too was corresponding to Oxana Ageeva, for about 3 weeks. I sent her a letter via post mail and she acknowledged receipt of it. I never told her I was sending her a letter. She definitely received it because I sent two pictures with it. She told me she got letter and pictures . Her address is Russia , Tomsk , 634021 FRUNZE St. , 118-14. Oxana Ageeva

Perhaps you could attach to this to the story or pass on to relevant authorities. I did not send her any money, but here is the letter which I think was leading to setting me up. The typical scenario !! Mother was sick and need Heart operation.  

Letters:

My sweetheart, hello! Sorry I have not answered you earlier, but so much tings happened here. I did not want you to tell everything, but now I feel we are close to each other, I'm sure that your are my real friend and I'd like to tell you more about my mom if you don't mind. I was going to spend my week-ends with my friends but all last days my mom felt extremely bad. She had like a needle in her heart inside. She had a heart attack about 2 years ago, so I feel really nervous. Last night she felt really bad again, I run outdoor and called for the ambulance from the public telephone. And they came 3 hours later!!!!! I thought I would lose my mind while waiting for them. They came, gave her medicaments, examined her heart pressure and left telling we need to go through doctors on Monday. It seemed to me I've spent the worst night in my life. Jeff, I'm sorry for telling such bad news but i trust you and feel really close to you now. I'm so nervous, when she had a heart attack the doctors said there is no guarantee if she lives after if it will repeat. He told me me she needs an operation. They can put some kind of little electronic device in her heart to make her heart pressure stable. The main problem her heart pressure is not stable at all, and the medicines are weak in this situation. When her heart pressure is high she takes the medicines to make the pressure lower; when her pressure is low she takes the medicines to make it higher. But it's very dangerous, because what will happen if she'll take by mistake a medicine for high pressure when her pressure is already high enough? I'm so afraid that it can happen one day. My mom had agreed to do such operation, but she needs it as soon as possible. We could wait almost a year for 2/3 paid operation (we have partly free medecine help here) if her heart was not so weak. We applied for the operation in the Cardiological Hospital in Novosibirsk , but they said we should pay 14000 rubles !!!!! It's so so unfair! How don't they understand that it's impossible for the majority of people? And what, for example, a pensioner should do if he stayed all alone without relatives? It's such a big pain for me too, I fell myself so helpless because now I can do nothing for my beloved mom. Because of my mom, I think I had a nice childhood. I almost never felt like I have no father and others do. I've had lots of friends in kindergarden and in school... I spent all my time playing with them, doing homework. I was into gymnastics, ball-room dancing, always busy in organizing celebrations at school. I enjoyed long walks with my mom in the evenings, where I shared with her the discoveries I made about life. I always liked to be outside, enjoyed to go to the forest to ski etc. When I was a teenager I was really into music, listened much, went to discos, concerts, parties. My psychology was that we live only once and we should appreciate every happy moment of life. I think every age has it's good side and i think a person can always open a new chapter in life, and even if there are bad times after them there always be good times, happiness, love. I know my childhood was not spent in a good times for our country. The life was especially hard when we lived in the USSR isolated from all the world. I saw a lot of problems around me my mom had to solve every day. She always worked much to survive, to protect me all I need. She did not think about herself, I thought only of me. Firstly, I did not want to write you all of it, but I need to share with you my deep pain, I wish you were here with me to put my had over your strong shoulder. I'm crying now, but this letter is the most clear from all I ever wrote.  I'm not confused to ask for your some kind and warm words for me, I need your letters and attention very much now, I miss you a lot and hope you'll come soon.  Kiss you, Hug you, With Love, Oxana  

Jeff Downes
joffaa1@tpg.com.au